Do you ever look at yourself now and then back to a little while ago and then see this sort of double vision?

Lemme explain, seeing both a good side, for instance coming along in someway, improving.

And a bad side, not having moved along, perhaps having taken a step backwards.

Some time ago, several years in fact, a person told me that I was a 17 year old who couldn't draw for sh** - and that I didn't have a right to an opinion on a particular topic. I had been, most likely, rude in how I expressed my opinion as tact has been a long time learning for me. Being 17 at the time, I was fine with the age... but what really hurt then was being told I couldn't draw, since Art is one of the things that I've constantly loved within my life for a very long time.

Now I am 19, and at least according to friends and family can draw (although I wouldn't drawing for shit...- I'd LOVE to draw for money...but I don't see that happening any time soon either). My step forward.

I lived, for a year, with my ex-partner in a bedsit of our own... now I live with my mother once more and am so terrified of men and relationships I can't stay in a relationship (even with women) or have men touch me around the shoulders. That would be my step back.

So, when thinking about it, does life balance out like that? A step forward and a step back? Or two steps forward and a step back? Has your life been like that at all?


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